Good Morning everyone, trusting your Father’s Day is going well for all you Dad’s out there. I wanted to take a moment to write on a few experiences now in the last several weeks where the Lord’s presence has been quite strong on me. One day I was in prayer about a week ago and as I paused toward the end to reflect on what I prayed, I began to hear worship music strong in my spirit, specifically a song called “Come to the Altar.”
I kept hearing the same verse repeat, ‘The Precious Blood of Jesus Christ.’
I then felt overwhelmed with love to the point it brought me to tears and I just began praising the Lord for everything -and I mean EVERYTHING.
In that moment it’s like time just stopped. It was such a powerful experience I can’t even describe it in words to all of you. Just imagine, you feel like your heart/spirit is being elevated and you feel in that instant like you are not even among the earth anymore. For anyone who has ever experienced Christ’s love in this way and knows the feeling, then you can understand what I’m talking about. I have told nobody about this until now -I may have described it in so many ways once before but it was a while ago and since I have now had a few other experiences like this I wanted to share it with my readers.
I have had this experience once before- when I was in worship -where I was so overwhelmed with the Lord’s presence, I stopped what I was doing and dropped to my knees. Each time it brings me to tears because of the beauty and love I feel -that’s how much love Jesus has for us and I feel part of it is that we can’t even comprehend it, we can’t fully explain it because it may not fit in our limited scope of thinking. If only so many others knew. You have to feel it to truly know it and even then, it is so powerful you still can’t truly comprehend it, but you know that you know because He has shown you and filled your heart up to capacity. The best way to explain it is that you feel like you’re going to burst.
I have never had what I would consider a true, loving relationship. The Lord knows it because I have cried to Him about it and He knows my heart even if I don’t say it. I desired it, but in all my personal endeavors I felt like they were not truly what I would call love. I gave my heart in true care, but in the end, I feel like I was played (emotionally manipulated) and used for sex once I let them in -and when this happened it made me very resentful for a long time. I felt like my heart was ripped out and I was broken beyond repair. I’ll even confess, I thought about getting revenge as a means to embarrass them, not physically but reputation wise -that’s how hurt I was. I didn’t do that but I surely thought about it at one point -I’m not too proud to admit that.
Most of us have heard the saying, “Two wrongs don’t make it right’ and it’s true we are not to take vengeance. Now if that isn’t mercy, I don’t know what is, because there was once, I even had chest pains and thought I was literally going to die of a broken heart and no matter how much alcohol I drank (at the time I was polishing off multiple bottles per week) and how much anger and sadness I had and all the songs I listened to about bad relationships, none of this would fix my sorrow and give back what was taken from me. That’s how bad it was and it made me put up walls. Not just in personal relationships but similarly, I felt like I was done wrong by many I considered to be friends of mine at one time or another -like they stabbed me in the back and were not there for me when I needed them. I had to let it go and allow the Lord to heal me. His promise stands true for all of us.
Part of my wilderness experience was letting go of the hurt and forgiving those whom I really thought at the time cared about me. I can now come to the understanding they truly didn’t know what they were doing but then neither did I. The saying goes, ‘it takes two’ and it’s true. Love to me is very powerful, and because I am more of the mind and spirit, it’s no wonder I had guarded my heart for so long that I would no longer let anyone in after the few experiences I had. I think what really got to me was the manipulation (the mind games). Part of it too, was that I felt like I wasn’t good enough for anyone. I rarely share experiences this personal except for with a close few, but bear with me here and you will see where I’m going with this, because all of this has to do with redemption in Christ and what He desires for us.
Not to get too far off point from how I initially began writing, I have prayed that anyone who has not felt love like this, the love that comes from Jesus, that the Lord will pour it out on them because if others knew how great and how vast His love is for us and how merciful He is being with us to get us to turn to Him, they would immediately stop living in sin and serve Him in everything they do and spend more time with Him. They would appreciate love, not just in the sense of relationships but how they treat those around them and not hurt others out of selfish ambition. I am going to circle back to why this matters after I share some dreams I have had over the last few weeks.
Ephesians 3: 14-19 (NKJV)
14 For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, 15 from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, 16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Luke 23:34 (NKJV)
34 Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do.” And they divided His garments and cast lots.
Dream – I Am Raising You Up (June 9, 2021)
In this dream I found myself on my back patio at night. In the sky I saw what appeared to be an angel blowing a trumpet. He was clothed in white. It immediately occurred to me that the angels and the blowing of the trumpets are mentioned starting in Revelation 8 as I have read them many times but as I reached for my phone to quickly reference these verses I felt like I was falling to the ground -not hard but gently but I never hit the ground, in the dream I felt like I was ascending -and I recall in this dream not understanding what was happening. At that very moment I heard ‘I am raising you up.’
I have been praying for clarity on this ever since. Shortly after this, the Lord told me to study, Ezekiel 37-39. If you look at this chapter, you will see it is about raising up the dry bones to fight a very great war;
Ezekiel 37: 1-14 (NKJV)
The hand of the Lord came upon me and brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley; and it was full of bones. 2 Then He caused me to pass by them all around, and behold, there were very many in the open valley; and indeed they were very dry. 3 And He said to me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”
So I answered, “O Lord God, You know.”
4 Again He said to me, “Prophesy to these bones, and say to them, ‘O dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! 5 Thus says the Lord God to these bones: “Surely I will cause breath to enter into you, and you shall live. 6 I will put sinews on you and bring flesh upon you, cover you with skin and put breath in you; and you shall live. Then you shall know that I am the Lord.” ’ ”
7 So I prophesied as I was commanded; and as I prophesied, there was a noise, and suddenly a rattling; and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 Indeed, as I looked, the sinews and the flesh came upon them, and the skin covered them over; but there was no breath in them.
9 Also He said to me, “Prophesy to the breath, prophesy, son of man, and say to the breath, ‘Thus says the Lord God: “Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe on these slain, that they may live.” ’ ” 10 So I prophesied as He commanded me, and breath came into them, and they lived, and stood upon their feet, an exceedingly great army.
11 Then He said to me, “Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. They indeed say, ‘Our bones are dry, our hope is lost, and we ourselves are cut off!’ 12 Therefore prophesy and say to them, ‘Thus says the Lord God: “Behold, O My people, I will open your graves and cause you to come up from your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel. 13 Then you shall know that I am the Lord, when I have opened your graves, O My people, and brought you up from your graves. 14 I will put My Spirit in you, and you shall live, and I will place you in your own land. Then you shall know that I, the Lord, have spoken it and performed it,” says the Lord.’ ”
So what does this mean? I am still waiting for revelation on it but I believe it is raising the Lord’s people up in spirit. Now I don’t know how He will do this as not everything is always revealed right away, but it has me wondering in times coming upon us, what He will ordain for His true followers -those who are doing His will. I continue to ask for more revelation and until I receive it I will patiently before the Lord and continue to seek Him. When I get the revelation, I will update.
Keep that in memory for later because this is all tied together. Keep on reading..
Now yesterday, (6/19) I was again filled with the Lord’s presence. No matter what I did all day, the Lord kept calling me even though I was spending time in the morning in prayer and worship -He wanted my full attention and I submitted to Him. He again filled me with such a strong presence I got on my knees to pray and reverence Him.
-And that’s another thing guys, when the Lord calls you to Him and you feel His presence strong, you should always be obedient. If you are disobedient, you may miss something He is trying to show you or protect you from. He may desire to give you direction on something.
I have told brothers and sisters of mine before when things aren’t going well or their possessions and material things keep breaking even when they replace them, that this is one of the things the Lord will do if He is desiring to show you something and we should always submit to His calling as it is more than likely to save you from something or give you wisdom how to contend with a situation.
Going back to the Lord’s love, that IS HIS mercy and we would be wise to consider this in the season we are now entering or have entered. In other words. if you see several things occurring at once and feel Him trying to get your attention, don’t wait for a house to fall on your head. Chances are he’s doing it for your own good and the wisdom will be provided to understand if even not at first, then eventually. Many times He will speak to me about an event coming and I sometimes will need to wait weeks before I get a revelation. Trust His timing but always submit.
Going back to what I was beginning to say; I spent a large part of Saturday, praying and spending time in scripture. He is having me study other scriptures pertaining to when He was betrayed by Peter and Judas. This is just a hint right now for my readers as I have much more studying and cross referencing to do but I believe He is showing me verses as they pertain to selfish motives and what leads to persecution and the cause thereof; Greed and Idolatry for example.
These examples are hidden within these verses if one cares to study them. There is much more behind it than just the testimony of the Lord’s persecution, crucifixion and resurrection. There is something He is showing me to share for the times we live. I am praying to have enough to write on shortly but know that this is what I am currently spending my time on and so if I seem aloof, please understand it is nothing personal against anyone, it is because I silence everything when He pulls me near to Him.
Before I went to bed, I gave thanks and prayed on more revelation to what He was showing me, between the dream I mentioned from a few weeks ago above and the scriptures He was having me spend time in yesterday.
I had another dream;
Dream of meteors or hot ashes and significant thunderstorms – It has to have been in the wee-hours of the Morning of on 6/20/2021-
Now some of this dream does not make sense to me, at least not yet, but I am sharing it as it is and not adding anything or subtracting anything from it. In this dream, I appeared to be in an apartment somewhere -I don’t know where I was because I have never seen it before. I was on the phone with my cousin, whom lives in Washington state, whom I have not talked to in years. She is gay and married and I have not had any contact with her for a number of years now. I don’t know why I was talking to her. Perhaps it is to demonstrate reaching the lost? I don’t know.
I recall in this dream her asking me if I saw what the weather looked like. I stepped outside (it was night) to look at the sky and it was flashing with lightning violently like I had never seen before. At that moment the phone went dead and the lightning increased and there were massive thunderclaps (one was not even done rumbling before the next thunderclap hit and they were loud…VERY loud). Something told me I needed to move to shelter quickly but because I was in the middle of this parking lot of this apartment complex I was at, the nearest place was akin to be what I consider a car port, like a covered parking area.
With each flash of lightning, chunks of rock or a hail of sorts began shooting down from the sky. When they would hit the ground, they would smolder as if to demonstrate they were very hot. I saw this a few times, like they had slowed down just enough for me to see what they were and a few times I thought one would surely hit me and I crouched down behind a car but they never did. It let up and I decided to make a run for the building.
As I was going toward the stairs, I saw this camera crew and the strange thing is they were pointing the camera at me as if to ask me what was going on and when I began to point out what I saw and thinking to myself how obvious it was, they mocked me. The man holding the camera seemed untrustworthy and had a dumb-looking smirk (seems akin to the news media now) and I recall grabbing their fancy camera and hightailing it up the stairs into the apartment and locking the door behind me. I don’t know why I grabbed the camera or what significance there was to this. The strange thing in this dream was that my brother Ian, who lives in Florida, was there with me and asking me what was going on.
I thought immediately again of Revelation 8. At that moment, in perplexity, we both paused and walked toward this TV that was hanging on the wall that we could hear faintly coming from another room. I remember not feeling fearful, but there was a weather map shown of the United States and Southern Canada and there were red markings and circles all over it -showing events in multiple places so much to the point the man on TV could not get composure about him. He seemed greatly panicked and could not explain the phenomenon (revelation) that was taking place -it was not confined to any one location -it was everywhere. This was the end of the dream and I woke up trying to make sense out of what I was being shown.
Well, from what I have studied in Revelation 8 I have to wonder if I am being given a dream in regards to what a coming event in the tribulation period will look like. I should mention that if the first dream I mentioned with the trumpet has to do with the start of this and a sign that God’s people may not be here and this is serving as a warning to those who are not yet saved to accept Jesus and get right with God;
Revelation 8: 2-7 (NKJV)
2 And I saw the seven angels who stand before God, and to them were given seven trumpets. 3 Then another angel, having a golden censer, came and stood at the altar. He was given much incense, that he should offer it with the prayers of all the saints upon the golden altar which was before the throne. 4 And the smoke of the incense, with the prayers of the saints, ascended before God from the angel’s hand.
5 Then the angel took the censer, filled it with fire from the altar, and threw it to the earth. And there were noises, thunderings, lightnings, and an earthquake.
6 So the seven angels who had the seven trumpets prepared themselves to sound.
7 The first angel sounded: And hail and fire followed, mingled with blood, and they were thrown to the earth. And a third of the trees were burned up, and all green grass was burned up.
Take from these what you will as my readers but this is why I opened this blog entry today, presenting one of many testimony’s when it comes to my own experiences, how merciful the Lord has been in His love for us to get our attention.
If you have not called on the Lord yet and welcomed Him into your heart, please do so as we are running out of time. These things, whether my dream testifies of it or not (I believe it does), will surely happen as it is written in the Holy Word. The Lord has told me He will begin revealing more and more to me and as He does, I will seek Him to see what He needs me to write or speak about concerning these prophetic events. I do not know if I will present these in blogs or in writings yet but it will likely be a combination.
Like I began to say in the beginning, when the Lord fills and surrounds me with His love, I believe part of the tears I shed is feeling the love He has, not only for His children, but for the many that are lost in this world and have no idea what is coming upon the earth -those He desires would turn to Him in accepting His testimony and repenting. So whatever you have been through, a bad relationship or a separation (and that’s why I mention the hurt that came from one of my own experiences as it is a big one right now), -whatever it is you are going through, know that it is not too late to call on the name of the Lord and be transformed into a new person, that you too may experience the Lord’s tenderhearted love and mercy. There is no problem too big for God.
There is no greater peace in the world than that of the love of Jesus Christ and I am a testimony to that as the Lord has done great things in my life and continues to show His unfailing love to me each and everyday. He desires to reveal it to you as well but it begins with you calling on Him. Welcome Him into your heart and truly seek change.
1 John 3:13-14, 16-23 (NKJV)
13 Do not marvel, my brethren, if the world hates you. 14 We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love the brethren. He who does not love his brother abides in death.
16 By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for the brethren. 17 But whoever has this world’s goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in him?
18 My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and in truth. 19 And by this we know that we are of the truth, and shall assure our hearts before Him. 20 For if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and knows all things.
21 Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence toward God. 22 And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight. 23 And this is His commandment: that we should believe on the name of His Son Jesus Christ and love one another, as He gave us commandment.
Romans 10:9-16 (NKJV)
9 that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 11 For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame.” 12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him. 13 For “whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.”
14 How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed? And how shall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall they hear without a preacher? 15 And how shall they preach unless they are sent? As it is written:
“How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace,
Who bring glad tidings of good things!”
16 But they have not all obeyed the gospel. For Isaiah says, “Lord, who has believed our report?” 17 So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
Isaiah 48:22 (NKJV)
22 “There is no peace,” says the LORD, “for the wicked.”